Missing the freedom of choice

Z...zzz.... I have been busy!busy!busy for the past few months... N so, so lerthargic as well.. My energy is being zapped away at work and all I look forward to, after a long day of work is, to catch as much sleep as possible to make up for my lost energy..

I have always enjoyed doing things at my own pace, at my own time. I have always enjoyed the freedom of deciding whether anot I want to work,sleep,play,read or just simply laze around on certain days without being bounded nor having to commit to anything. I always enjoyed being the master of my own fate, the author of my own heart filling pages of what I have done on certain days with the choices I have already made myself. I really cherish those times when I could decide myself to work as and when I like and on days where I could coop myself up in a big bookstore and spend hours reading there..

But, people grow.. As I step into 20's, all who love and care for me, tells me I need to settle down, get commited and achieve something eg, work wise? Time flew by and past, and so I did. But, maybe I am just not used to being bounded. I kinda loathe the feeling of not being able to do anything on my few spur of the moments just like before, cos I am bounded and I have to be responsible, I need to commit. I miss the times when I could read in a bookstore, slurrrping down a big bowl of hot udon in the eatery somewhere in town with heavy downpour outside, while others are working.

Geeeezz..Am I too typical singaporean already? Cos I am lamenting so much right now. Alright, Shh... I guess all I need is, more time to adjust my thoughts and lifestyle habits. It's just a matter of getting used to and I am actually thankful with what I have currently. At the very least, when compared to others, I feel I am so much lucky. I am working in a very desirable location which I simply adore. Working time is flexible and I enjoy working with my colleagues for they are all nice and helpful people...