23rd November 2007

THE JUDGEMENT DAY. I AM A PASS! = )

I AM REALLY HAPPY TO HAVE DONE MY BEST AND GOTTEN MY LIFELONG DRIVING PASS TODAY. I TRULY BELIEVE THAT HARD WORK AND EFFORT PUT IN WILL REAP RESULTS AND IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO HOW BADLY YOU WANT TO GET IT. BUT, BESIDES HARD WORK... ALL I WANT TO SAY IS, I HAD ABIT OF GUARDIAN ANGEL'S LUCK SHINING ON ME TODAY.. PLUS ALL THOSE BEST WISHES VIA TEXT AND ENCOURAGEMENT FROM MY LOVE ONES AND FRIENDS, PUSHED ME FURTHER AND MORE DESPO THAN EVER TO BATTLE ON-GET IT, COS I DID NOT WANT TO DISAPPOINT THEM, MOST IMPORTANTLY MYSELF. I WANTED TO FINISH IT OFF BADLY. I KNEW THAT IF I DID NOT MAKE IT, IT WILL BE A BLOW TO ME AND I REALLY WILL LOSE THE SPIRIT TO DO ANYTHING ALTOGETHER.

ACTUALLY, I DO NOT WANT TO BLOG ABOUT THIS, BUT I DID AFTERALL, IN CASE ONE DAY I FORGET ABOUT ALL THOSE MIXED FEELINGS I EXPERIENCED MAINLY (WORRIES, AFRAID, NERVOUS, FRANTIC AND AT LOST) AND HOW I DID EVERYTHING.
RIGHT NOW, EVEN AS I BLOG, I AM HAVING FAINT MEMORY. EVERYTHING WAS PROCEEDING WAY TOO FAST AND BEFORE I START TO FEEL FRIGHTEN AND NERVOUS AGAIN, IT WAS OVER WITHIN HALF AN HOUR AND I WAS SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE STERN LOOKING TESTER, MR SONG WHO TOOK ME AT THE OFFICE AWAITING FOR MY FATE...

UPON KNOWING I STRIKE KERB WHICH BLEW AWAY 4POINTS WHILE DOING VERTICAL PARKING, MY HEART WENT COLD ALL THE WAY IN THE CIRCUIT AND ALSO ON ROAD.. ALL NERVOUSNESS DISSIPATED. I WAS PREPARED FOR THE WORST.I THOUGHT " NOTHING TO BE NERVOUS ABOUT, JUST DO YOUR BEST AND APPLY WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN TAUGHT. THE REST WILL LEAVE TO FATE." SO I DID EVERYTHING IN A RELAXED STATE, NOT FORGETTING TO BE CAUTIOUS AND DID WHATEVER WAS REQUIRED. I WOULD SAY MY TESTER IS A VERY IMPATIENT MAN...? HE GAVE INSTRUCTIONS WAY EARLY AND HE WAS SO QUIET ALL THE WHILE IN THE CAR, YOU WOULD NOT BE CONCIOUS HE WAS JUST RIGHT BESIDE YOU.

WHEN THE TEST WAS OVER, HE STARTED TO ROLL OUT ALL THE ERRORS I MADE AND I THOUGHT I WAS FACING DOOM...... SITTING IN FRONT OF HIM, MY GAZE WAS FAR FAR AWAY. SOBS*** THAT SHORT MOMENT WAS SCARY. I DID EVERYTHING IN LESS THAN HALF AN HOUR AND ALL I WAS GOING TO FACE WAS PASS OR FAIL... I SERIOUSLY DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH EVERYTHING AGAIN... IT HAS BEEN DRAGGING FOR SO LONG EVEN PA WAS GETTING IMPATIENT AND SAID I WAS TAKING ABIT TOO LONG... FINALLY, MR SONG PLACED THE TEST PAPER AND MY IC ON THE TABLE AND ASKED ME TO GO TO ROOM 5. I WAS STONED, NOT KNOWING WHAT HE MEANT AND HE REPEATED THE SECOND TIME BEFORE WALKING AWAY. I STOOD UP AND WENT THROUGH THE PAPER TURNING BACK, I SAW 14POINTS AND BESIDE WAS MARKED PASSED!!!!!!

WA!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S SO COOL! I COULD NOT BELIEVE MY EYES! I SAID "THANK YOU" AND HE NONCHALANTLY WALKED AWAY.. THAT MOMENT, I FELT SO PEACEFUL AT HEART. EVERYTHING IS FINALLY OVER!!! THAT GUSH OF HAPPINESS IS LIKE RECEIVING A SMS FROM THE GUY YOU LIKE, ASKING YOU OUT FOR A FIRST DATE, YOU JUST LIT UP AND CAN'T HELP SMILING. BUT, BEING THE PARANOID ME, WHILE WATCHING VIDEO IN THE ROOM, I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THIS PASS IS MINE FOREVER, I EVEN IMAGINED THAT MR SONG MIGHT JUST SUDDENLY DASH IN AND CHANGE HIS MIND. HAHA......! HOW SILLY I AM... I THINK I WATCHED TOO MUCH DRAMA. SO DRAMATIC. I TOOK A PHOTO AT THE VENDING MACHINE AND APPLIED FOR MY PHOTOCARD LICENCE WAITING TO ARRIVE IN TWO WEEKS TIME...

TODAY IS REALLY A HAPPY DAY FOR ME. I REALISED I WAS EVEN GLOWING ON MY FACE WHILE LUNCHING OUT AND SHOPPING WITH CLARA.. THIS JOY IS REALLY SO HARD EARNED AND HARD TO GET. NOT EVERYONE CAN GET WHAT THEY WISHED FOR AND I GOT IT. BESIDES MY OWN EFFORTS, I WAS BLESSED WITH ABIT OF LUCK. = ) THANK YOU EVERYONE, WHO HAS ENCOURAGED ME AND SAYS THAT I CAN DO IT! STARTING FROM THIS WEEK, ALL THE DAYS LEADING UP TO TODAY, TIL EVERYTHING WAS FINALLY OVER, I WAS TORTURED MENTALLY... THINKING ABOUT THE WORST SCENERIOS ESP LAST NIGHT, DESPITE TURNING IN EARLY FOR BED, MY MIND WAS STILL RACING WITH ALL SORTS OF THOUGHTS, I DID NOT HAVE A GOOD SLEEP.

HOWEVER, I AM CERTAIN TONIGHT, I WILL HAVE A GOODNIGHT SLEEP, SNUGGLING MY BED AND TOMORROW WILL BE A SWEETER DAY. NEXT, I AM GOING TO FOCUS ON OTHER COMMITMENTS AND PUTTING MY BEST FOOT FORWARD. GOODNIGHTS!