DARN! I CAN'T SLEEP!
anyway, i have already found a way to make myself sort-of look forward to the op tmr. it's like a hook or by crook must go kinda thing. hiak hiak...
i have also drawn up a mental list of material wants to reward myself. i am gonna reward myself for the pain i am gonna go through.. = )
i don't know how the thang is gonna be tmr or how much in pain i am going to be once i wake up, but it's something i have to brave through..

clara is going to accompany me to the dental centre early morning tmr and wait for me outside till i am out of the theatre.
after which, our plan is to go sushi tei which she wants. i hope i can accompany her and not in great pain till i just wanna fly home. hope i will be fine tmr. * crossing my fingers
painkillers will surely be very close to me in the coming few days.

Boss kept teasing me and frightening me with all the imaginary stuff going through in his mind like cartoon strip. Grr...R talking about pliers in my mouth, and etc etc... GRRRRRR..... they are thoughts i myself want to avoid and he just got to bring it up.
after which i be on a week's MC! Hmm.. times sure flies! always like that! just that i am spending them in pain!

tonight, i had somewhat not considered a great dinner. just char siew rice and a hot soup. i couldn't think of what i will crave for during my days in pain. cos the min i think about op, i no longer have the mood to crave, thus the normal fare. and the best part is, i am not a char siew rice person normally. soup yes! but not char siew rice. can you all imagine? what was i thinking then? i think i want alot of cold stuff after, to numb the parts. shall try things out myself.

i shall not be pessimistic nor feel down about tmr. "come on, just a minor op, don't be silly! ma chiam like end of world meh?!" i will be BRAVE and fight those needles, i am gonna feel angry about them! this way, i get red bull's energy! when i am angry and is mad about something, I GROW BIG! GUSTO!~~~ wahaahaahah!!!!!!!!!!! i won't care a thing in the world nor give a damn!

now, i shall try to sleep now. cos it's an early day for me tmr! 时间过好快！29th apr is already here!

quotes to share :
the biggest fool in life, is one who thinks too highly of themselves!
it never kills to be humble and speaks nicely.
when they get a taste of their own medicine?