Gr..R..Rrrr
my scheduled appointment to remove all four of my wisdom tooth is next wed. 29th apr 2009.
as days draw nearer, i get more and more unsettled.
thinking all sorts of weird thoughts and even haboured the thought of backing out next wed. but i have come thus far.
then again, why should i go pluck them all out when they have been good to me all these times?
choy! *touch wood
aiyah! so 烦！
i am one scaredy mouse.
i happened to chance upon one video of xiaxue's on her blog. she's damn brave!
it just came timely cos it was a recording of the entire process of her wisdom tooth extraction. ALL FOUR also.
i wanted to know more about how's the process like, to prep myself, have an idea at least.
but, it's not helping me.
the drilling sounds and etc on the video sent chills down my spine!!
i skipped certain parts which i hate to see. after her op, there was so much BLOOD!!!!! er........
SOBS~ *boo hoo hoo hoo...
on the other hand, i hate the idea of handing myself to other people, to do something to me when i am unconcious. i am not a very trusting person.

but, what's there to speak when i don't have a strong heart nor strong mind to experience the whole process, CONCIOUS!!?
i know i will subconciously grip the armchair, profusely shaking my head, shouting " No, NO" and start sobbing uncontrollably the minute i see needles, injections that's gonna go through my gums!!!! i swear i really scream when i see! no one has ever heard me scream at the top pitch of my voice before lor! none of you would want to hear it, trust me! what a scene i will make! and still embarass myself in front of so many people! GAG!
but, can control one meh? it's phobia leh!!! something you loathe!
ARGHhhh!!!!!!!!!!

these 2weeks is the best time for me to chomp down food (no one will stop me) since after the op, i can't eat much and must avoid hard food, but the fear is making lose my appetite. the minute i think about this, i lost all mood to eat.

my guardian angel, please stay with me in the theatre when this day comes...
im gonna reward myself after this op, as a bravery award to do something BIG alone. 做件大事。哈哈哈哈！！！ guess, this is the only something i can make myself to look forward for this wisdom tooth extracton~。。。next week!~