In about 3 months time, I will turn another year older.
no longer young Neither old.
I still have a long way to go and gain more life experiences.
磨练自己。
alot people say "life is short."
I agree too.
then again, I also feel I have a lot stages yet gone through.


I am currently working and am blessed my colleagues are also nonsensical bunch that cracks me up so often and work is alot more fun!
School is ending soon in March and what's coming up after this? What other programmes am I interested in?

Weekends are strictly reserved to meet up with my gfs for some girly stuff and spending time with family.
I work hard during weekdays, thus personal time in the weekends is fiercely guarded.

My girlfriends say I have nice features but I am plain LaZy to dress up. Mark prefers me wearing contacts and feels pek chek when I have specs on. just like how I will be pek chek with long hair guys. it's the same feel.
nonetheless, I am blessed to have all these friends who love me for who I am. = )
because they love me, I guess that's why they want me to become better and tap into my hidden potential.
I always say " if can afford better things, why not?"
so, they say "if you can become prettier, why not?"

I love Food.. but I can't cook a 3 dishes decent meal. very simple ones. I could still handle an omelette that can end up slightly burnt at the base. Yup. maybe I should set time aside soon one day and see how far I can go. I could be surprised my limit might go further.

Mum's cooking is the best! I want to learn from Mum NOT because so I can cook for my man next time. I want to take over mum soon or at least be good enough to help her out when she prepares food for occasions in future. and Mum's to die for dishes, if I don't learn, I will regret someday in the future. I want all her culinary skills to be passed down to me, so that I can cook for myself when I miss her and her cooking.

The way to my heart is through my stomach and this don't work only for guys! or rather, I don't agree if you can cook very well, it captures your man's heart to want to come home to you. your man could even be most probably disgusted from your oily looks and smell from those cooking, just how appreciative is that?
Firstly, see what your man needs the most. your man will only be most appreciative of you and wants to come home everyday to you, if in all his life till he met you, has never tasted home cooked food and never felt the warmth of dining at home, much less know how to cook even instant noodles. But if your man knows how to settle his own meals, then cooking really delish meals are probably to him, just food that tasted really good in his memory and nothing else.

I haven't dated for yearS... until recently.. Mark says I don't know how a man thinks, how a man feels cos I also think like a man, act like a man. it doesn't matter cos I have not much experience and he is alright with it so long as I learn how to be a Woman. sometimes, I consulted my gfs and tell them about what happened and see what is their take and if they were in my shoes, what would they have done. and out of five times, only one or two times, they did the same thing as me. then i realised how insensitive I am. how I can just inflate a man's ego without realising it?
I guess if that's the case, I will just think how a kid feels or normal adult feels if I do somthing next time. cos I care alot for a child's pride and kids are most vulnerable and at work, I am also careful when I highlight someone's mistake, esp choice of words and my expressions, I try to keep it to a minimal.

Mark always says “你可以不要这样man吗？ 这种事是留给我做的， 男人做的。” haha..! in this relationship, I am not doing what I am supposed to as a girl, to wait for my guy to surprise me. But, I did it all one step faster.
His exes cooked him meals, de-shell his prawns for him and did alot of other girly stuff I can't think of. I did none and has only cooked him carbonara shells and omelette once, which was a flop! and am not doing it any sooner until the mood to cook comes.
a girl even asked him how many sugar cubes he needed when she was helping him to add sugar to his tea.. gosh! I was stunned when i heard that OR was it normal? I would just help add in a cube or two and he can add more himself if it is not sweet enough. NO?!

I always feel in my capacity as a girlfriend, there are limitation I do not step over, those can wait till I am married, like prepping meals for both of us, setting his work clothes aside the night before. Marriage is alot more formal. serious commitment.
Dating is fun, exploring new places, new food, new stuff together! perhaps mine is a little mature, the things we do is like married couple sometimes. like cleaning up rooms during weekends, doing laundry and making a visit to the supermarkets!
I cook for him because the mood is there and I want to share with him the food I like and it's easy to prepare.
I buy him shirts because I can visualise him looking good in it and wants to see him wearing it.
I do things I like and am happy doing. no hard and fast rules as to what I should or should not do as a girlfriend.
I walk off if I am NOT happy cos I do not owe anyone a living.

Follow my heart and gonna do what I feel am inadequate in areas I want to become better. COOKING! and more...