I thought, we will both have a clearer picture what's up for us this month.
Nontheless, Buddha has been kind to give us one more month to spend time.
March, we will know.I dread to know.
Mark keeps saying what I don't want to come true.
Somehow, he seems prepped for the worst.
We both might already been prepped for what could be looming in front of us, just that for all the time we spend daily, we are both reluctant to acknowledge the fact and we have never brought it up.

But, he keeps saying it recently, seemingly trying to keep me prepared for the day.
He worries and thinks that I can't take care of myself and asks what if one day he is not around?
I make him see that he has nothing to worry about because I have a cosy clique who are tough individuals who stands by me and are all very loving, protecting souls.

On my side, subconciously so strongly, I detach myself slowly from all the daily activities that has changed for the recent couple of months.
I am now trying to go home more regularly, so that I won't feel the sudden change. my legs brings me back to his home so naturally these days.
I am also slowly putting myself back into the routine of bia-ing for work, staying back after office hours. after all, I slackened recent months. It is time to pick up once again and at least I won't feel like I have nowhere to go.
I need to find myself something extra to do during the weekends, cos I am already used to being out with him and my friends have been most tolerant and understanding towards us, giving him the priority.

I won't be walking the back alleys of Gardens without him beside. I won't be going out to eat zhu-zhu, la~la and gongong impromptu.
Greatful, my school is finishing in March, not too bad, or else I will feel so weird going to school alone without him waiting for me at Chinatown. I already started to go school alone again last sat, without him.

Perhaps, There are more than those I mentioned. Perhaps, when the day comes, I will feel more than what I think I will. But, I will tackle all that comes.

I believe come what may, I will do fine. I can adapt to changes and will find something to occupy my mind. I won't allow myself to stay still at one spot.

I am tough, so is He... We are so tough to break when we stand together .