Hello Guys!
I am Back!
Back to this old playground, I used to drop by so often, even everyday sometimes...
It feels weird, to let this place come to life again.
A place I am so comfortable, familiar and hasn't come by for four months.
It is so quiet and deserted!
Let me know if you guys are still around!
GIMME SOME NOISE PEOPLE!
Drop me a message, say hi! = )
This playground will soon be husty busty again with my return!
I think I willl have some free time on my hands in future or even now.
Well, I am single again!
For those not knowing my disappearing act, for the past few months, all my time, energy and focus was solely on my beau...

I am back to my 色彩世界。
Right now, I am feeling somewhat like how I felt 2 years ago. ---> click Here.
I feel rather down lately, it started off last week.
I know I am down when I start buying things with colors, wanting to inject more colors into my life.
These days, I am feeling blue.
I am also feeding myself on sweet stuff like crepes, doughnuts and cakes to sweeten my mood.

When he was not around last year, during that period I took to beer and drank.
Drank to make me sleep, drank because I was not happy and drank cos I missed him.
That was how I discovered Sapporo and love this beer until he came home and shared this beer I love during his absence and he loves it that he often grab 2 big cans at 7-11 or NTUC.

Since last week, I started to drink again.
This time, not just beer. Mojito, cocktails, sake and etc until my system is geared up and all ready to counter combat my drinking allergies of itch and rashes.
This time, I drank cos I was feeling down, drank cos I wanted to feel high and at same time Intoxicate myself!
Normal by Day, Abnormal by Night in the past week till I do not know what is day and what is night.
I only know to dress myself up when dawn breaks and transform into a party girl by night, then the high life starts.

I thank my parents for giving me a strong heart to get me past difficult times.
I am greatful and blessed with the best gfs I have! Went through the shit period with me in the past 1 week till don't know day or night and ended up a walking zombie just like me. That kept me going and not losing my sanity and as a result, I am back in my own mould rather quickly, Although not completely.
Takes time, but trust the day will come.
It made me realise how many people love loves me. That I should change my priorities, care and love those who matters more and walked through the many suns and moons in my life.

Everything has come to a close in a wink of eye! Really in just a wink!
爱得轰轰烈烈一场， 一切结束了。  我足够了。

All I want is, him to live well, live good and be happy!
The way it ended is a pity but at this moment, it's best for him, best for me.
Perhaps the time is not right.
他有自由走，我有自由好好过。
Perhaps after trotting the globe, we might stop at a full circle where we parted.

I figured however, him letting me go could be the greatest love he could ever give.
Because, it is not easy to let go of someone you love.
要把手松开， 不容易。

有个朋友问道， 两个相爱的人何苦要分开， 走到这一步？
只有这条路可走吗？
既然， 走了这条路， 那么你们有更开心一点吗？
我没法回应她。。。
I had no answer for her...