all With Effect From Oct'2007 = ) WEF OCT'07

alot might not know what's so significant about the heading above. the above, means something unique, something so freedom, such release and flying~ to me.. all WEF Oct'07..
i am finally released off. from abit of work. during. the weekends. = )

Today is the first, i shall never need to work till 9pm. what a release.. how good that feels... *breathe
n Tomorrow is the first ever, i can do whatever i long to do and often envy if only i also can and now i really can.

ever since i took up the weekends to do work 2yrs ago, i regretted immediately. my Sat was like Monday to me while others relax over the weekends to gear up for Monday, it was the start of the week for me. i berate myself for not taking any action faster than this. i wonder now why, how i could t.o.l.e.r.a.t.e this so long and get through it for 2years.... and well, when i finally had ENOUGH, i blew up and decided to dump everything, i was ready to take off.... i wanted no room for negotiation. i was all out and focused to get what i wanted. Freedom.. time...doing the things that i like was what i needed. nothing was worth staying for, not even more moolah. enough was enough.

until this important friend finally spoke to me.. i was comforted, but i thought friends, we are still friends outside, even if we are no longer colleagues. if i am not gonna GET the working times i am going to list down next, i am taking off.. i don't want people to come negotiate with me to give way. i am not happy. and the fact that i was already not pleased long ago, will only lead me to explosion next! i guess what my loves says about me is true... i am an extremist. it is either i do too much or not do totally. 2years is more than enough, isn't? i don't want to talk to people and discuss, bargain to work solutions out. i have my own way out. i don't need anyone to do me a favour.

and.....VOILA! i was granted what i wanted. which is. taking off abit of work. during. the weekends. = ) and it starts all WEF Oct'07. tonight is the first weekend to pistol off! and so beautifully, i am in for my cousin's baby 1st month buffet gathering at her house. i have given lots of misses like these for the past 2years. i chose to ignore, keep silent and not think about it in order to fufill my work. but as times goes, i start to have laments. i wanted to attend those gatherings with family and friends without having to take leave. i wanted to be there for a catch up. and just why did i choose to tie myself down with work in the weekends?? it is a waste to burn away my weekends like that. and the free Fridays were not even proper rest days. i felt stressed as every Friday night grows, i have to become Cinderella. i loathe it.

2years ago... how much i have changed.
i chose to take up work in the weekends previously because..
-i hated snake queues everywhere, crowds, noise pollution and being squeezed by people. n thus weekends was definately out for me.
-i am claustrophobic.
-i didn't need to go dating.
-my life revolved my bro, my bro and still my brother. i was not into socialising with friends except the palm full of close ones i have.
-i dislike family gatherings and spending time with friends i was not close to.

2years later today...
-i feel that i need to be out with more people in order to help ease away the uneasiness i feel when being crowded by people. n weekends are the only times people are free to gather. parties, gatherings, catchups and etc.
-who says i must go to town during the weekends to get squashed by people and get myself into furstrations with queues? i can definately avoid this and go elsewhere. why did i only think of town that time?
-even if i don't wanna go out during the weekends and just simply stay home, at least the weekends belongs to me still. i take charge of what to do instead of being tied down by work. i think i will enjoy my coming Sunday Brunches, home invites, beachy affairs and so much awaiting!!
-my bro has set firm in his decision to make me go out and socialise with more friends. few couple of months has passed and i am beginning to think "why not?" he doesn't want me to revolve around him and just him. he was right to mete out this decision and staying firm..
-now i am thinking good to meetup for catch up with friends and family over gatherings. so what if it's gossips, silly jokes and tradditional comparisons during family gathers? don't forget about the small cliques warm chats, utterly freedom to moving on to others' gossips and sharing life experiences next, being the attention or joke for that 10secs and then the bundles of laughter erupting here, there and everywhere. = ) i am enjoying it.
-i think i am beginning to learn embrace relatives ties and more new friendships!

looking at 2years before and after, i realised how much i have changed. little laments and that immediate regret led to my little explosion to `let go`. ummm..
tonight was a good night for me to be in touch with my extended family i have not seen since that ~long... my goodness! how much all my nephews have grown?! i could not differ who was who.. they have grown so tall in such short time!!!! my elder male cousins has turned old, fat and some starting to have receding hairline. i better take good care of my metabolism rate! (old=fat) haha...! my auntie and uncles are also getting on in age but looking gorgeous, esp aunties!!

even i am already in my 20's.. but why i don't feel it so strongly? maybe that's why time flies.. i have changes too, but i can't see it myself. my cousin who used to stay in my house when she was young asked her father "who is that girl sitting there?" hahaha...! n my uncle exclaimed "she is peiyun jie, you don't recognise?" n the minute i stepped into my cousin's home "my male cousins exclaimed "wah, ni zeng de si nu da shi ba bian!!" how exaggerating!!!!!!!!! this shows just how long i have not seen them.... my da gu even said "if you still don't turn up for family gatherings, the next time you come, we will be so old until we won't be able to hear you anymore." you will see me often from now on, i promised in my heart. my elder cousins and wives said the same thing when they see me "hao jiu, hao jiu mei you kan dao ni le, not even during CNY." one cousin even said i was so dao to be missing for every occasion. how pathetic to hear this....

i really like to immerse myself in this hearty atmosphere tonight. getting a warm hug from my cousin at the back the minute she sees me arrive, seeing how my extended family is getting on, chatting with them, knowing what has been going on, have a good laugh and watching those kiddos grow up, not forgetting the great food that follows always..

Cheerios to more GET-TOGETHERS with family. with friends! my heart has open up! =)